An Insight into Instincts – The Forensics of Fait
You could argue that I'm not as dedicated to this
blog as I once was.
Practically, you would probably win that argument.
Theoretically, you probably wouldn't.
At this moment bluebird is sitting in a place I
once used to call my nest (home, if you're not up on my over use of metaphors).
The island of Manhattan, New York City. A place that I hung my hat eleven years
ago - and it does feel like eleven years ago.
This is the first day that I've had to myself in
weeks, and I thought it would only be appropriate to pull out my laptop and
start typing with all the other pretentious coffee-drinking- self-indulgent
writers in this midtown coffee house. (Just to be clear, I'm drinking green
tea).
Scene set? I hope so. Use your imagination if my
words fail you.
Brushing my fringe off of my giraffe like eyelashes
(that never get me out of trouble, despite relentless batting), staring
intently at this screen - I've decided to stop apologizing for my late,
delayed and otherwise non-existent articles.
My dedication to my art is now a well thought-out
process as oppose to impulsive, indulgent rants. Meaningful as oppose to
passive-aggressive or subliminal attacks/judgments. Thus, if anything - I'm
putting more into this than I ever have before; a truer, less contrived
version.
That's my story and I'm sticking to it. Maybe it's
age, maybe it's experience, maybe it's balanced hormones. Whatever it is - I
promise to provide you with writing well worth the wait.
SEGWAY - so, here we are, if you're still reading.
Have you ever thought about fait? Not faith, fait.
That unrecognizable thing that is just going to happen to you no matter how
hard you try to change or avoid it. Otherwise known as the opposite of control.
You can be the most organized, control-centric,
informed, decisive, well balanced person on the planet; but despite all of
these fork in the road decision making tactics - you still, really, don't know
what the road ahead has in store for you.
Why do you meet the people you meet? Why do you end
up in the work you end up in? Why do you make the decisions you do? Is it
because of the way you paved your life out or would this all have happened in
one way or another with or without your life plan firmly set in place.
Logically, we can come to the safe assumption that
all things are a product of your path (where and if you went to University,
which job interview you went to, which job you accepted, what clubs you attend,
sports that you play, hobbies that you pursue, who you ask out on dates, who
you say yes to) . But, what happens when no matter how much you alter your
path, certain elements continue to re-appear on your route like a de-ja-vu.
Is that fait?
Is that one thing that keeps reliving through the
years the same thing that life wants you to have so intently that it finds a
way to give you a 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th, 6th to infinity chance of catching
it and not letting go.
We don't know why, but it's very probable that we
make a subconscious decision to keep inviting that one thing back into our
story; whether it fits or not. This could primarily be because as animals we
are instinctive, but as highly evolved animals - we have learned to think more
objectively and ignore our instincts. Our instincts would tell us to grab an
opportunity at the first instance. Whether it be a special person, a job, a
decision, an opportunity or a change. What happens when we ignore our
instincts?
We shelf.
When we shelf, are we indecisive? Or are we
fearful? Over-whelming evidence (me - listening, watching, analyzing)
suggests that the more highly evolved the person, the more fundamentally
"intelligent", the more emotionally "aware" person, is the
same person who is more likely to shelf. A person less inclined to analyze scenarios
adapts a primal nature to just follow instincts, much like many other animals
on the planet - simply narrowing options down to "yes" or
"no".
Que, fait.
Fait, by this thought process, is actually more
planned than a leap of faith or universal coincidence.
By shelfing, we put options behind us that we can
continuously revisit. Therefore, carving out a future that includes things that
on face value appear to have been rejected. So when we shelf, is it because we
constantly want something more? Are in search of something better? Or do we fundamentally
know that these things are right for us, and that we will come back to them,
whether we want to or not? Our brains are telling us to reject, our instincts
are telling us to pursue and the rest is left up to circumstance and heart.
Counter-acting that; those who follow their
instincts are neither more inclined to succumb to their fait, but rather; rush
into decision making. Therefore, creating complications and conflict with what
could potentially be a very different future.
So, what is the answer? Which way is the right way
to do it it?
There is no right way. It's fait, it's going to
happen whether you like it or not. There might be very different types of
people, very different types of decision making processes - however, I think
it's extremely important that we take note of certain patterns that develop in
our lives. Life is throwing you curve balls and it's up to you whether you want
to play or not. How quickly you get to where you are supposed to be is based on
your own observation skills. Don't be the fool who jumps at chance number 10,
get in early, get in and enjoy it for the rest of your life. Notice co
incidence, NOTICE. Look around you, because one day, those things could
be your future. A happy future, the right future.
Fait may have it, but it's up to you to see
it.
